Tuesday, February 05, 2008

this is so honestly dedicated to the ever shitty boss in the entire world of shit.

sarcasm shot right behind your very back is the worst case of shit that can really screw up my hatred and anger for someone alright. and since you've done it, then you're done for. i really really really effing hate people like you.

initially, u gave that really innocently freaking kind look. like some really good boss that's kinda nice and all. in the end, it was all a plastic facade. sheesh, how large an asshole can you be? if you're unhappy with me leaving FIVE OR FOUR MINS earlier, say it right to my face. why bother to go to such deliberate means to say it to the permt staff when i'm not around? are you like such a wuss that you can't just bitch right in front of me, a close to eighteen years old person. to think you're almost twice my age, blooooody hell. dont you feel ashamed about being such a 'little person'? bloody pathetic.

can't believe how much of an act you'd put up in front of me. to think my mom still think you might give me angbao during cny eve. i guess its never gonna happen in a million years or more. you're the most niao person i've ever seen in my entire life. for a miserable four or five minutes. cmon, other bosses even tel their temp staff to leave earlier since they've nothing to do anymore. so why can't i? and when i leave at 6.05, how come i don c u crawling over to tell e other permt staff about how hardworking i am and why i'm leaving FIVE MINS later? cos its just so insignificant right. five or four mins? than why the heck are you bitching so much about this? is it even fun or amusing? or does it bother you to the max that i'm actually not maximising the miserable pay of 5.80/hr that the office is paying me? if 4 or 5 mins of early dismissal is gonna bother you so much, than deduct it frm my pay for all i care. it'll only be like 20 or 30 cents anyway idiot. you want to eat the money right? go on and do so. better off, just choke and die. dammit. freaking sucker.

i almost had an impulse to call on the agency dat recruited me to quit this lousy job. but i decided not to. instead, i'm think i'm gonna continue spite-ing him by leaving earlier as usual. don give a damn shit can. but mayb i'll plan to let him read this freakin entry once i quit, you deserve it idiot. see, even your other permt staff had quit cos she decided she's not gonna spend her quality time serving a two-faced boss like you. or are you even fit to be at a level above us? i don't think so. at the low level you're scooping to when trying to put across a message to a staff, i think you'd lost all respect i've ever had for you.

whats with using lousy analogy of saying the time in my computer is faster than everyone else's is it? when the truth is the time in everyone's comp is the freaking same. going one big round to convey your msg to me THROUGH your permt staff somemore. u are one effing creative idiot eh? but i don c the intelligence in your act of using this method to convey a msg to me. its the suckiest method i've ever seen, seriously. and it only puts your character at an even lower spot. i think it doesn't even give you a spot anymore, you're way beyond the shitty hope.

last but not least, i hope time flies as fast as a shooting star so that i can freaking earn this stupid money and leave this place asap.

and send the hatemail to the asshole.

YAYNESS.
feeling better alrdy.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

erm.

i know i don show it so wellllll on my face.

but thanks leh, vera, kenneth, justina, ytf, kl. thanks (:

Friday, November 09, 2007

leaving this blog.

Sunday, November 04, 2007

mmm. since pw is near to OVER, shant complain about it anymore!
YES!!!
YES!!!
YES!!!

okay.

i think i believe what gavin said. it's random but true, in certain parts of your life, some friends just come and go.

though they're here, they're actually not. hmmm... :)

Friday, November 02, 2007

you r a piece of irritating shit.
yes you. damn you.

i've never been so pissed off in my life until i met sucha person in pw grp. yes.

SO FREAKING RUDE LA. DAMMIT.

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alright. school's ending once pw is over, and i'm leaving... ):
and all my mother can say is what you still care so much bout your sch since you're leaving.
duh duh duh.
if you'd spent half your year in schools like almost 12 hrs a day...
andd. when you've made friends who are like. great listeners, jokers, players(online game), and so many thing else?
will you bear to leave?
sheesh. feeling so argh.
plainly cos of the earlier person who'd gave me a VERY RUDE reply in the sms.

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sigh.. angeline reminded me of so much ytd. ):
but cheeer up too!!!
we're in the same boat! although yours sinking now, and my sinking has been over, its really a wreck now. HAHA

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than. hmm. random note. csm is lame. HAHAHA

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

an hour of crying makes ur nose, mouth and eye hurt like shit - thats what i've first experienced and realised today.

cos' its been a long time i cry that seriously, cept for the other time during my godfather's funeral.

the fact they you can so easily cry in the next few minutes also amazed me.

i think it was my fault, for not putting in enough effort for mye which later pulled everything down - i deserved it.

so, what r e prospects?

retained, or poly?

i'm selecting the latter - after long considerations.

i feel so shit.

i'm such a lousy friend to all, esp the ytf people. i can't believe its cos' of me that the ytf is aint gonna b complete ever again. i hate that. but, through em, i learnt how many people support me all the way, even if their face don't normally show much, but they do. every single one of em, after seeing those tears in their eyes when i stepped out; i seriously broke down. i didnt know what to do, what to say, what to promise; i can't do much now, can i?

and then, walking home with csm was probably another worst thing that had ever happened. its funny if i typed it in words, but then, we just walked. and walked.

then at the staircase, we talked bout my decision; (i was clearly not in the right state of mind)
then, i said i might b going poly and all.

so while saying that, i kinda felt the pinch in that deep deep part of my heart again(no im not les), and just teared like crap. but its mostly because of how csm cries. she cried like she's the one getting retained, not me (so did the rest of ytf). so we just gave each other another hug(not les) and cried and cried.

than after boarding the bus, i almost teared again.

i darent look at csm anymore, cos' i think one of the people im gonna let down e most might be her. she'd always been there, everywhere for me. she was like my new found hope in nyjc, the school which i originally detested like shit, but then found hope and great friends(ytf).

and i'm so sorry i didn't make it. i didn't want to either. i'm so sorry i can't continue the jouney with the rest of ytf. i'm just, so so so sorry that i don't know how to express how i feel without my eyes tearing.

thank you csm, for always being there. you were one of the few who had given me a feel of a close buddy whom i had known since rs days cos' well, we're sorta from the neighbourhood schools with the same sort of 'tradition'. most importantly, you were one hella a fun friend! laughter, fun, and all. everything's just great when hanging out with you! :D i guess you were pretty much the person who had made up the absence of the presence of piglerts, and my other <3ed friends. hence, thankkkkk youuuuuuuuuu so much csm!!!!

then, sharon! hey girl. thanks so much for the times you've always accompanied me also! seeing you cry so badly just now really made me feel even worse(i mean not the very bad way). actually, i think you're gonna do very well for your studies! so dont worry too much bout what the bad people(u noe who) always talk bout you guys! :D personally, i think you were a person whom i could relate to thru my probs and personal stuff(secret stuff), and. i'm really sorry for not being able to stick with you thru' out the whole of dis & next year. and, when you said you'll still come over my house to stayover, it really just made me felt so much sadder and upset to think that i'm gonna leave jc. damn... why was i so dumb? sigh. but sharon, really. thanks for everything you've done, like buying the donuts, accompanying me to do stuff(i forgot what), and many many more. thanks. (:

andddd angeline. my click five cum vampire cum books buddy. i think i've never ever found another person who had shared so many of the same interests as me, esp reading! i mean. reading has been such a taboo word to so many people, but it just brightens up my day when i'm hanging out with you reading! esp the undead series. than the twilight series.. and discussing about the fact that dumbledore in harry potter is gay, and so much more. it's like discussing our entertainment in a whole different league from the psp peeps! (no offence to the rest =P) alright. i'm gonna cry upon thinking about leaving you as well :( [not les] cos' i'm seriously going to miss you. really really. sigh. i'm sorry for not being able to stay on.. really am, really is, really are.

and eunice. actually; i hadn't had many a chance to talk upclose and personal with you. (not in les way)... and i kinda regret that. but, nevermind. i still think you're one of the nicest girl i've ever met. even though you have the ahlian look, you're actually one of the most not ah lian girl i've ever seen. you're so good-natured! and u're also always so concerned about your friends! thats like super duper nice. i mean, yeah, i seriously appreciate your presence so much in ytf. cos' u're always so neutral, so nice! ah. everything's cool to have you, and i'm sad that i have to leave now. i really am. hais. sry :(

phyliscia!!! coolest girl i've ever seen. seriously, even though you look very girly, you're damn cool la. the red crumpler and all; i think you're really cool. haha.. and, thank you so much for trying so hard to help convince our teachers to get me promoted, really. i really feel super lucky to have met the whole lot of ytf, and you're really one of the bestest persons i've ever seen in nyjc too. thanks for the folded stars, for teaching me how to fold straw stars oso. thank you sooo much ): what i'll miss most might be the dramas i usually go with you guys even though its stinking boring. anddd... may you n tzehin stay tgt forever until married! den invite me to b bridesmaid :D hehe. (: thanks for being a friend throughout. thanks (:

most importantly, i know the sky must be dropping for me to say this.

but, i really love my parents.
thanks mom, thanks dad. (even though you might never see this)

and, thanks for letting me call to cry and speak whatever i can to you vera.
i think i sounded like a ghost just now anyway, sry

and thanks to the rest (you know who you are) who'd been so encouraging in e positive way despite my majorly serious negativity which still came true.

oh man, i want to cry again.
better not.
bye blog. i'm not emo already, luckily i've got over it weeks ago. gee.
sigh.

Friday, October 19, 2007

i realised two days of emoing did freak out many people.

:D

whatever, i'm not emo now. i'm freaking frustrated. wth is pw? seriously. i don get it. you still work on your stuff individually, and than someone simply has to carry the bloody job of collating everything and suffering till very very late in the night just to get things right. yes, thats wth happened for the damn written report fyi. this all has been shit.

but alas.

thats SOOOOO not gonna happen for op anymore.

i don't care if the rest of the slides are weird and not synchronised with mine or whatever. since its more of an indiv test of your presentation skills now, so be it. it should have been like this from the start of the yr for pw, u do stuff individually.

its time to be a little more selfish.

let everything just crumble and die. gee

my rant is over. i think this has been my first ever rant on pw. ROFL. the rest of the time are mostly spoken out, not type-writtened.

oh well...

anddddd.

i'm so glad Justina's always there for my complaints! the day before her birthday, we went to the coffee bean in sun plaza and everything was just great :D coz' it feels as great as spitting, though i've never spat, i mean on purpose or what. uh yeah u get e drift. you're simply talking, trying to make known your grievances, and unhappiness, or happiness(if there is even any in the first place). yeah, you don't have to try so hard to make yourself known. cos' the other person(in this case its the she-man) KNOWS you are sad and wont look pressurised or afraid to see you upset, ya. that pretty much explained a 5% shift in my mood to a happier one.

hahaha

o yeah. cheer up wenson! you'll hear e gd news tmr for sure.

...........................and i died, one day at a time.

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